Last night I had the worst dream. Actually, it was this morning, after my initial alarm went off. Billy-my-hero said he would get up to see the girls off to Seminary, so I could get a few more minutes of shut-eye. I'm not usually one who can go back to sleep after being awakened, so today was one of those rare exceptions.
Maybe I was meant to have the dream.
Since the dream was about Britt, and in the end pretty silly, I thought I would share some of the silly pictures I found of her in my vast digital files :-)
It was Britta's wedding day. We had arrived at the wedding place late. (I say wedding place only because it was NOT the Temple. Instead, it was a super cheesy reception-type-center in a strip mall. I was confused, but went along with it, since the guests were already there.) Bill and I sat in the back of the large, crowded, gym-like space, as some officiant began to talk. The sound system was horrendous, and the speaker in the ceiling above our heads had a constant, annoying, high-pitched buzzing. I leaned over to Bill and told him we would need to get some of our money back from that obviously low-budget establishment.

After a few minutes, we were told that we would be
moving to another location for the
marriage (in our church it is also referred to as a
sealing -- you can read more about it
here. They are only performed in dedicated temples, so the fact that, in my dream, the sealing was open to all the guests, and not at a temple, confused me even more). This caused the need for us to exit one area of the strip mall, walk around a large red truck parked at the front entrance of the business next door, and enter a door on the other side that led to a super large mega-church-like congregational-style-seating room. As we were walking to the second location, I noticed that it was getting dark. "What time is it?" I asked...
someone. "Six o'clock," was the reply.
What?
Six?? The reception is supposed to start in 30 minutes. Panic started to settle in.
Once again Bill and I were seated at the very back of the room. Britta was a glowing white dot on the stage. Austin, however, was nowhere to be seen. The wedding guests waited and chatted amongst themselves.
Then it hit me.
I hadn't purchased any refreshments for the reception.
I ran over to where my mother-in-law was sitting (at the back on the other side of the room). What should I do? Should I run to Costco or Sam's? Which store would be better? Where are they located? Which one is closer? I should have pre-ordered some veggie and fruit trays... How on earth am I going to get the food to the reception in time? Should I leave the wedding? I'm going to HAVE to.
Thoughts of still-frozen cream puffs, eclairs, and mini quiches (certainly not a favorite, but I was desperate) ran through my head.
Britt was still the tiny, shining white figure on the distant stage, patiently waiting for Austin to arrive...
I woke up with a ginormous pit in my stomach.
Relief.
It was just a dream.
And, like George Bailey in
It's a Wonderful Life, I felt like doing a
celebratory dance that it was.
I still have time.
Here is my self interpretation of the dream:
{Obviously} I am
anxious. I am worried about being
unprepared, or forgetting some important detail (like refreshments!). I am worried about unintentionally leaving someone off the list, or stepping on toes, or being too controlling (so instead, in the dream I just went along with
whatever the plan was, even if made absolutely
no sense). I know things may happen that are completely out of my hands (where
was Austin??), and I am worried about how they will affect the overall carefully-planned event, and my
reaction to them (I would
never the leave the wedding to go to the store, I'm sure of it). I don't want to be the cause of stress or anxiety to those around me, especially to my own darling daughter.
Good thing that reality is
much better than dreams. Especially that one!
And, with the fear of a
fiasco in mind, I will put all my effort into making it the best day ever for my children. Then I will step back and let it happen... putting out fires, if needed... running to Costco, if needed... adjusting to whatever the situation calls for,
with a smile on my face.
And, as someone wise once said (which someone wise posted on Pinterest, and thousands in agreement repinned):
"If at the end of the day you are married to
the one you love, then everything went
perfectly.